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#domagick Day 11

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , on December 11, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

“The ties that Bind” My theme for working with BaalBerith this morning. 
He didn’t appear for the beginning it was just light darkness with his sigil burning in the air. 6 areas to be exact. It is like they were branded on the wall. When they cooled they formed doors. I learned not to open door in meditation. That’s just a whole new thing that I’m not ready to start right now. However he had different plans. He grabbed my hand and threw me towards the door. I ended up floating and passing through the door and landing on my feet. It was like slow motion of me entering every door who threw me in.

Patience,  Humility, Compassion, Protection, Self Love and Truth ( Mirror) where behind those doors.

Walking with him his touch was ice cold, which I wasn’t ready for. I felt weightless. Like I was walking through clouds, walking on notbing, feeling nothing. I was smelling fresh cut grass and wood. He has an Earthy feel to me. I’ve worked with him only a few times, but enough to memorize his element. 

He had me walking through the woods.  I saw my feet walking effortless through these leaves with no issues. I cam to a tree that was extremely huge. It reminds me of those giant redwoods in California.  Carved deep within the trunk was his enn, his very complicated sigil. I told him his sigil needs to come with directions on which and where to start. He smiled. Underneath that was the Daemonaltry sigil, and one of the Houses sigil. Surrounding the tree was moss. The branches where so tall I couldn’t see them, but I know they were blocking the light above us. The roots reached out for a few hundred feet. The tree itself was very cool to the touch and you felt the beating of its heart. Slow and methodical.

I sit under the tree and a branch shoots through my sjoulder. 4 to be exact. Looks like some Earth workings are on their way. Once they pulled out, the wounds healed and I really felt like I was one with the tree. I just keep hearing Self.

The card I drew was No Place like Home, protection pose. Well, let’s just say this slapped the taste out of my mouth and confirmed a lot of what has been happening with me lol. 

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#domagick  Day 10

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , , , on December 10, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

This has to be the most emotionally draining meditations I have done. It is all for me to improve myself, but we all know that old wounds reopen are the most painful.

Baal Inuakhem Corvinus is another personal Daemon. He is the Lycan Side, that in depth knowledge of oneself.

It was an ominous vibe with him, I asked him while and he said because he is an ominous being. Lol, I’m going to need him and Vercerah to stop with the theatrics. They have been observing humans way to long lol. In smoke gray setting, he invited me to sit down and talk to him. He had a slice of New York Cheesecake, with strawberries on it and whipped cream and a cup of coffee. Like my favorite dessert. He, surprisingly had chocolate cake and milk. I think it is milk, or a milk like substance.

“Fuck life before it Fucks you”
That is the lesson he is teaching me. He opened up so much pain within me that I actually forgot about.  He said I can just move on. I have to confront it and work with it, to understand it.

He said there is no starting over. Just continuing.  I have started over too many times and never kept going because the obstacles really knocked the breath out of me. Knocked me down so bad that their are no regular tears, just look tears. Filled with misery dropping from body.

Slashes with his nails, exposing the pain I have been hiding, the pain I have forgotten, the pain I had pushed deep down, the realizations of being wanted and needed, he is opening them. Raw emotions he is asking me to grab on to.

My shadow self needs a whole lot more work than I thought. He is that bestia side, the one that doesn’t hesitates that goes for it. It is what I need to release. I go for half then stop, feeling some type of way.

He told me to pull cards 2, 8 and 4. Chop Wood protection pose, Orphaned protection pose, and Mending right side up.

Chop Wood protection, tells me to stop daydreaming and make it happen. If I take a step, they will take multiple steps towards me in my pursuit. I just need to stop being scared and take that first step out of my comfort zone

Orphaned protection , is one I choose not to share.

Mending, I’d self explanatory within the context of my vision.

This vision, meditation, reading took a sever toll on me. I will be working and contemplating for a while. 

#domagick Day 8

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , on December 8, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Today is my meditation with Aupep. The most beastial being I have worked with. I didn’t recite his enn this time, instead I recited this poem of opening into chaotic waters.
I see Aupep. Looking like the Dragon from Dragon Ball Z. Around him is a portal opening of pure fire. I am walking towards him and his tail slashes my arms from shoulder to wrist. But it isn’t blood spilling. It’s lava. It’s falling from my arm in spirals. It’s dripping in spirals onto the ground, as I walk into the fire portal to converse with Aupep. Once in the portal it seals, and it’s only darkness. The ring of fire is my only light source. I look down and I am walking on the teeth of serpents. As I walk, they are cutting into my feet, become one with my flesh. The lava blood is flowing from my veins and on the side of me are more serpents. The lava spills on them and they turn to ash. When they fall they fall upwards and wrap themselves around my open cut. And continue to do so until they are covering my arms. I hear Him say “We Are One. As One”. I look at my hands and they have serpent teeth at the end of them. My nails are no longer nails, but the teeth of what I was walking on.

I turn around and I am in a desert. I hear blades clinging, but I see nothing. I’m on flat land and I can see for miles. But I only hear the blades. Normally my ass would run off and go exploring,  but this time I crossed my legs and fell to the ground. I’m acting bratty lol. I close eyes. I feel myself raise up and when I open them I’m looking at a dragons head on a serpents body. Yellow fluid is dripping from its veins. Annnnnddddd it takes off. Lol, I’m like shit.  The sky changes from sort of dusk to purple. I have no clue what planet I’m on because when I look up, instead of seeing the Moon, I see Earth. Well shit.  I know I can’t see it from Jupiter, plus I go there too much so I know this place isn’t it. Uranus comes to mind but I can’t see Earth, but it feels right. If not, then I am pretty sure I’m on a planet in a different damn solar system. I hear the clanging of metal. And I be damned. Are those Titans that I see fighting? Unholy hell! The Serpent I’m riding, which I’m pretty sure is Aupep, is speeding through the desert; but they are so large that it looks like we are just walking casually buy, instead of speeding at, at least 60 mph. Before I can comprehend, I’m back where I started. Wth dude. Damn it Aupep, you do this every time we meet lol.

I stand up and turn around and it’s Him. Giving off a Piccolo feel to him. He has my weapon in his hand, wearing gold and green Armour. His face is that of a dragon, a humanesque body with a very long and pointed tail. I look at my weapon, forgetting how he got it. I mean he is Aupep, he can have whatever he want, I’m not telling him no lol! In the scepter is a dark green blob of something. I take my weapon and look at it. It’s zooming in the scepter as if trying to break free. I hold my right hand up and wave it in front of it, and a man forms. Well humanoid figure forms. It is of a dark green color in the lotus position, with his third eye open. It flashes from ruby to garnet constantly. He smiles and stands up. I’m amazed. I move my hand and He forms back to a blob and darts around again.  Again, I hold my hand up and we have a nice talk for a few.

Aupep and I talk for a few more. He is always imparting wisdom, giving me a kick up the ass and pushing me harder. To open up more, to feel more.

I blink and I’m back in front of the portal. The ring of fire. The portal is now just a mirror. Those ashes of the serpents are still fresh on my skin, the lava blood is still dripping out, albeit very slowly. He is behind me in the Mirror. It’s always a sadness when he leaves. It feels like a part of me aches for him to come back. But he knows I am strong, and it’s just my human emotions getting the best of me. After all, being back on Earth really isn’t everyone’s dream vacation lol.

I drew 2 cards, Not for You in the protection pose and Higher Power.

Not For You says stop chasing what’s running from you, and stop trying to make things work. Just move in. There are better things for you. You see the red flags, heed them and move on. I need to trust that something better is waiting for me.

Higher Power, reminds me that I am conscious for a reason. I’m here for a reason. I need to let that reason be the for front with more meditation. Relationship wise my connection to the Spirit is number one. But this card also means that I am partnered with someone who is very essential in my growth and evolution.   The main message is let my Spirit Lead. Know that you are not alone. Have humility.

#domagick Day 6

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , , , , , on December 6, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Today was the beginning of my work with The Council. I connected to my House, and at a large wood table in front of me where the 3 heads of the House. Behind me, also sitting at wood tables where the council. They were divided into 2, 4 on each side.

The amount of approval and love that I was feeling from them was very overwhelming. I have came a long way, I have struggled, I have fucked up, and I have crashed and burn. But I always got back up and got better. I am at that point now. I am more full of love and confidence, and respect than I ever have been. But don’t get it twisted, this sweetheart will still fuck you up. I have a mean excretion arm. I’m still a Dark Magician. Who says a Daemonalter/Satanist,  Blood Chaos,  Necromancer can’t be bathed in pink and enjoy cartoons all day lol.

The Council gives me the most in depth working ever. After all I start with the 8 of them, and they are some heavy hitters.

I’ve become whole, I’ve been able to let my guard down and a facade that has protected me due to my own lack of confidence.  Not anymore. I have all the cconfidence right now, and I am building up more and more through my own faith in myself, my workings and my relationships. There is nothing like having a partner that supports you, grows with you, helps you, you learn from them and vice versa, and is honest with you. You can’t find that nowadays and it’s a blessing to find one that is on the same path as me. That has ideas bigger than mine. After all he created the House and every working I’m doing for these 30 days. The couple that works together, stays together lol.

My card draw for today.

I am not even going to describe it or give my interpretation.  It speaks for itself.

#domagick Day 3

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on December 3, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

This meditation was done with Bael. I set an orange and apple on my altar, poured the House wine, added my salt and herbs and blood to the House chalice. Lit my candle, dragons blood and sandalwood incenses’. I dropped a few drops of blood on Bael’s page, my Death Figurine, Hecate’s key, Sekhmet and Leviathan picture, my talisman and on my guardians tablet.

I wanted to add some meditational music so I decided to loop meditation from Ott Sumerian, his Meditation Beezlebub as I see Bael as a different side of him. This mediation was intense, as mine with him normally are. I was into 2 different era’s and received 2 different keys to further me on another path that I have yet to write about.

I had an abundance of visions, but more importantly I felt more than I ever have. I’m good with all my senses except feel. It’s not as strong as my sight and smell. But this time, I felt everything more intensely. I felt wheels within me turn, I felt colors, I felt the drums I felt myself.

The newness of this meditation helped me figure out which chakras need to be cleaned and given more love. My Muldahara, Vishuddha, lower Anahata, Anja, and Sahasrara is fine. It’s my Svadisthana and Manipura that are not turning as fast this time. So I’ll work on those.

Next was my daily pull from my Oracle deck. I was drawn to draw three cards. Message in a Bottle, Unfinished Symphony, Treasure Island.
Message in a Bottle is telling me that the Universe and a divine has heard me, and the reply has been granted and will be coming to me in favorable ways on all fronts from relationships to career.
Unfinished Symphony is telling me to start closures on things that should have already ended. To clear out that old baggage,  finally put it to rest so I can move forward with the things I have started and need to continue.
Treasure Island is telling me I hit the nail on finding my hidden potential. I need to keep my eyes open and make sure that everything will be found. Some are obvious, others need a little more digging. Relationship wise my partner and I will continue discovering new things about one another and even though I may not see it, I will be taught valuable lessons and be brought great gifts.

I easily spent an hour in this meditation and it had refreshed me. It even had me shed a tear or two. Being a Water sign I get so emotional at times I just laugh at myself. But if anything, this meditation with Bael taught me, and my pulls, to trust my intuition,  open my heart and pay attention. I have worked so hard to get where I am, and it’s only getting better from here. There are always bumps in the road, but take them slow and keep going.

#domagick Day 2

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , , , on December 2, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Today I worked with Belial. We have evolved into having a wonderful connection over the years. I remember in 2010 I think I approached him and he told me to go away, come back when I was more confident. He scared the shit out of me.  But 2 years later I was back, and now he is one of the first and closest Daemons I work with. I have nothing but love and respect for him, and I enjoy our interactions.

I away of fire and water, a beautiful combination and he fuels that firey side of myself. My guardians and those I work with are a mic of fire and water. Even though he’s more Earthy fire, he still gives me though that foundation and drive of my creativeness and passion. 

Belail is 1 of 3 main Daemons that I work with in though House of Baal (see my post 2 days ago). The House is an Earth Kingdom, my Mate is Air and I am equal Fire and Water, so you see we blend perfectly and we compliment what we need to be whole and in balance.  My working meditation with him went as follows, which is normal.

I grabbed my journal, and opened to his Blood Dedication page. I lit a red taper candle, Dragons Blood incense and sandalwood incense. I vibed the House Chant, and I said his enn. I added a few drops of blood on his page and proceeded to have a nice conversation with him. That 30 min felt like hours and I really didn’t want to leave. It’s like talking to your grandfather, the wisdom that he can impart on you can really make an impact if you are one to work your ass off and not wait for things to come to you. 

Since I am also a diviner, I pulled a Divination card. It’s Poised.  This card i pulled says to me that you are on the right path. You have achieved the perfect balance, you know what you need,  your confidence is aparent and a new phase of life is beginning. This is the moment when new things arrive and you arrive finally ready for them. As far as relationships go I am happy and confident in my own skin, and my personal relationship is ready for that deeper intimacy while my friendships are arrive in true harmony and I’m truly free to give and receive frim the heart. I have felt a stronger boost in my confidence since my birthday 19 days ago (Scorpio by the way), and in the way I’m seeing and approaching the newness of this rebirth.  My confidence will lead me to that new venture and I am ready to receive new information and new beginnings. 

I feel secure, I feel stronger, I feel confident in me; in my life; in my relationship with humans, Entities, nonhumans, and everything in between and anything beyond. 

#domagick Day 1

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , , on December 1, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

My altar is in its new home. It’s decked out and I already feels centered. I decided to focus on just moving everything where it should be, but decided to take my first say of the challenge and use that time to organize my altar and connect in a new place. I am loving it. It feels refresh and I felt so less stress setting it back up and placing everything where it am wanted to be.

I was even able to hang my picture up. I love this picture. I got it as a gift from a silent auction I attended in Philly a couple of years ago. It finally has been put up and the energy is complete.  I feel refresh and look forward to what is in store.