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#domagick Day 22

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , on December 22, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Only a few more days left before this challenge is over. I am going to continue doing these 30 min meditation’s in the morning, with my practice.  They have made such a big impact on my day, that I can’t really see myself stopping them. 

So today was meditation on the Black Pyramid.  I saw the pyramid come towards me, open its lid and in I went. It was very similar to the white cube meditation except everything was black including my clothes and eyes. I was flying, again it looked like hyperspace. You know when you watched the shows back in the day, when the Enterprise went to warp speed and how the stars looked. Yeah, it looked like that.  I started to turn around and started falling. I feminine figure met me when I turned around and she pressed into my stomach and pushed me down. I’m kind of panicking lol, but it gets worst when my abdomen is pierced with the top of a black pyramid. The pain is intense and I scream out. But she silences me when we hit the bottom. She asked me is it really pain I am feeling, or just the human equivalent of what pain is supposed to be  and feel like. That caught me, and then I focused in and realized that I really didnt feel anything. It was just there. I ku d of felt like an ass. We talked for a few. She was telling me of what to add to my meditation.  

I have a pyramid on my altar, it’s not black but I will change that. It will be added to the meditation that Baal Hammon and  Baal Baphomet gave me. The pyramid will sit on my lap, and for 30 min I will vibe and feel the pyramid. Become in tune with it, and at this point I don’t know if I absorbed the pyramid, or it absorbed me but it is on my solar plexus. It’s just there. Slowly spinning and vibrating. I will be testing this meditation today. 

I drew 2 cards Happy Happy and Deep Knowing in protection poses. What I need to do, is lighten up and relax, because I am psychically exhausted. I have been for a while and these cards really put it out there. So I’m going to chill today and rest for tomorrow 

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#domagick Day 12

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , on December 12, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Agares came through like a rush of wind. I got caught up in a tornado of wind. But there was no sound. I heard nothing, I felt nothing, I saw nothing. I’m a feeler with my hands, so I activated my shield so it can do sort of a bat echolocation thing. It came back lime green, interesting color. I was walking on a dirt ground. Feeling with my sensors where to go. And I fall through the ground. I land heavily on the ground and get up. I’m in no pain at all, or soreness. Again I reach out and I see a lock. It has been caked up with the mud and dirt. But it is a black cast iron lock with a skeleton key hole. As I am admiring it, I fall through again.

This time when I get up I ‘see’ a large book. I open it and the pages are written in Babylonian and African language. Great, this is going to be easy lol. I walk a few steps, then say shit, falling again lol.

This time I pick up a chalice, and it falls apart. Guess that wasn’t for me. I thought I was approaching an athame but when I bent down to pick it up, it was an old candle in a brass candle holder. I hold it to my chest with the other items and wait to fall again. It doesn’t happen, figures.

I see Agares to me left, we’ll I feel his presence to my left. His outline of his sigil is still fresh in my mind and when I turn that direction. It grows brighter. He comes to me and the tornado stops. He says the lock represents sturdiness and with the right key does it open and bend to our will. The book has knowledge in it for me, from Babylon and Africa. And from Africa you need to go west. The candle is illumination, a friend in the dark. You can work them together or separate but you can work them.

I pulled cards 8 and 12 that he instructed. They are Observer, and Tick Tock protection pose.

Observer says illumination with others is what you need to seek and find. Step back from your own objectivity and stand at a neutral point. When neutral and curious, take yourself out of your work and really look at it.

Tick Tock protection pose says relax. Your miracles are yours and can’t be missed. Slow down and trust in the Divine.

 

#domagick Day 11

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , on December 11, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

“The ties that Bind” My theme for working with BaalBerith this morning. 
He didn’t appear for the beginning it was just light darkness with his sigil burning in the air. 6 areas to be exact. It is like they were branded on the wall. When they cooled they formed doors. I learned not to open door in meditation. That’s just a whole new thing that I’m not ready to start right now. However he had different plans. He grabbed my hand and threw me towards the door. I ended up floating and passing through the door and landing on my feet. It was like slow motion of me entering every door who threw me in.

Patience,  Humility, Compassion, Protection, Self Love and Truth ( Mirror) where behind those doors.

Walking with him his touch was ice cold, which I wasn’t ready for. I felt weightless. Like I was walking through clouds, walking on notbing, feeling nothing. I was smelling fresh cut grass and wood. He has an Earthy feel to me. I’ve worked with him only a few times, but enough to memorize his element. 

He had me walking through the woods.  I saw my feet walking effortless through these leaves with no issues. I cam to a tree that was extremely huge. It reminds me of those giant redwoods in California.  Carved deep within the trunk was his enn, his very complicated sigil. I told him his sigil needs to come with directions on which and where to start. He smiled. Underneath that was the Daemonaltry sigil, and one of the Houses sigil. Surrounding the tree was moss. The branches where so tall I couldn’t see them, but I know they were blocking the light above us. The roots reached out for a few hundred feet. The tree itself was very cool to the touch and you felt the beating of its heart. Slow and methodical.

I sit under the tree and a branch shoots through my sjoulder. 4 to be exact. Looks like some Earth workings are on their way. Once they pulled out, the wounds healed and I really felt like I was one with the tree. I just keep hearing Self.

The card I drew was No Place like Home, protection pose. Well, let’s just say this slapped the taste out of my mouth and confirmed a lot of what has been happening with me lol. 

#domagick  Day 10

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , , , on December 10, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

This has to be the most emotionally draining meditations I have done. It is all for me to improve myself, but we all know that old wounds reopen are the most painful.

Baal Inuakhem Corvinus is another personal Daemon. He is the Lycan Side, that in depth knowledge of oneself.

It was an ominous vibe with him, I asked him while and he said because he is an ominous being. Lol, I’m going to need him and Vercerah to stop with the theatrics. They have been observing humans way to long lol. In smoke gray setting, he invited me to sit down and talk to him. He had a slice of New York Cheesecake, with strawberries on it and whipped cream and a cup of coffee. Like my favorite dessert. He, surprisingly had chocolate cake and milk. I think it is milk, or a milk like substance.

“Fuck life before it Fucks you”
That is the lesson he is teaching me. He opened up so much pain within me that I actually forgot about.  He said I can just move on. I have to confront it and work with it, to understand it.

He said there is no starting over. Just continuing.  I have started over too many times and never kept going because the obstacles really knocked the breath out of me. Knocked me down so bad that their are no regular tears, just look tears. Filled with misery dropping from body.

Slashes with his nails, exposing the pain I have been hiding, the pain I have forgotten, the pain I had pushed deep down, the realizations of being wanted and needed, he is opening them. Raw emotions he is asking me to grab on to.

My shadow self needs a whole lot more work than I thought. He is that bestia side, the one that doesn’t hesitates that goes for it. It is what I need to release. I go for half then stop, feeling some type of way.

He told me to pull cards 2, 8 and 4. Chop Wood protection pose, Orphaned protection pose, and Mending right side up.

Chop Wood protection, tells me to stop daydreaming and make it happen. If I take a step, they will take multiple steps towards me in my pursuit. I just need to stop being scared and take that first step out of my comfort zone

Orphaned protection , is one I choose not to share.

Mending, I’d self explanatory within the context of my vision.

This vision, meditation, reading took a sever toll on me. I will be working and contemplating for a while. 

#domagick Day 8

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , on December 8, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Today is my meditation with Aupep. The most beastial being I have worked with. I didn’t recite his enn this time, instead I recited this poem of opening into chaotic waters.
I see Aupep. Looking like the Dragon from Dragon Ball Z. Around him is a portal opening of pure fire. I am walking towards him and his tail slashes my arms from shoulder to wrist. But it isn’t blood spilling. It’s lava. It’s falling from my arm in spirals. It’s dripping in spirals onto the ground, as I walk into the fire portal to converse with Aupep. Once in the portal it seals, and it’s only darkness. The ring of fire is my only light source. I look down and I am walking on the teeth of serpents. As I walk, they are cutting into my feet, become one with my flesh. The lava blood is flowing from my veins and on the side of me are more serpents. The lava spills on them and they turn to ash. When they fall they fall upwards and wrap themselves around my open cut. And continue to do so until they are covering my arms. I hear Him say “We Are One. As One”. I look at my hands and they have serpent teeth at the end of them. My nails are no longer nails, but the teeth of what I was walking on.

I turn around and I am in a desert. I hear blades clinging, but I see nothing. I’m on flat land and I can see for miles. But I only hear the blades. Normally my ass would run off and go exploring,  but this time I crossed my legs and fell to the ground. I’m acting bratty lol. I close eyes. I feel myself raise up and when I open them I’m looking at a dragons head on a serpents body. Yellow fluid is dripping from its veins. Annnnnddddd it takes off. Lol, I’m like shit.  The sky changes from sort of dusk to purple. I have no clue what planet I’m on because when I look up, instead of seeing the Moon, I see Earth. Well shit.  I know I can’t see it from Jupiter, plus I go there too much so I know this place isn’t it. Uranus comes to mind but I can’t see Earth, but it feels right. If not, then I am pretty sure I’m on a planet in a different damn solar system. I hear the clanging of metal. And I be damned. Are those Titans that I see fighting? Unholy hell! The Serpent I’m riding, which I’m pretty sure is Aupep, is speeding through the desert; but they are so large that it looks like we are just walking casually buy, instead of speeding at, at least 60 mph. Before I can comprehend, I’m back where I started. Wth dude. Damn it Aupep, you do this every time we meet lol.

I stand up and turn around and it’s Him. Giving off a Piccolo feel to him. He has my weapon in his hand, wearing gold and green Armour. His face is that of a dragon, a humanesque body with a very long and pointed tail. I look at my weapon, forgetting how he got it. I mean he is Aupep, he can have whatever he want, I’m not telling him no lol! In the scepter is a dark green blob of something. I take my weapon and look at it. It’s zooming in the scepter as if trying to break free. I hold my right hand up and wave it in front of it, and a man forms. Well humanoid figure forms. It is of a dark green color in the lotus position, with his third eye open. It flashes from ruby to garnet constantly. He smiles and stands up. I’m amazed. I move my hand and He forms back to a blob and darts around again.  Again, I hold my hand up and we have a nice talk for a few.

Aupep and I talk for a few more. He is always imparting wisdom, giving me a kick up the ass and pushing me harder. To open up more, to feel more.

I blink and I’m back in front of the portal. The ring of fire. The portal is now just a mirror. Those ashes of the serpents are still fresh on my skin, the lava blood is still dripping out, albeit very slowly. He is behind me in the Mirror. It’s always a sadness when he leaves. It feels like a part of me aches for him to come back. But he knows I am strong, and it’s just my human emotions getting the best of me. After all, being back on Earth really isn’t everyone’s dream vacation lol.

I drew 2 cards, Not for You in the protection pose and Higher Power.

Not For You says stop chasing what’s running from you, and stop trying to make things work. Just move in. There are better things for you. You see the red flags, heed them and move on. I need to trust that something better is waiting for me.

Higher Power, reminds me that I am conscious for a reason. I’m here for a reason. I need to let that reason be the for front with more meditation. Relationship wise my connection to the Spirit is number one. But this card also means that I am partnered with someone who is very essential in my growth and evolution.   The main message is let my Spirit Lead. Know that you are not alone. Have humility.

#domagick Day 6

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , , , , , on December 6, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Today was the beginning of my work with The Council. I connected to my House, and at a large wood table in front of me where the 3 heads of the House. Behind me, also sitting at wood tables where the council. They were divided into 2, 4 on each side.

The amount of approval and love that I was feeling from them was very overwhelming. I have came a long way, I have struggled, I have fucked up, and I have crashed and burn. But I always got back up and got better. I am at that point now. I am more full of love and confidence, and respect than I ever have been. But don’t get it twisted, this sweetheart will still fuck you up. I have a mean excretion arm. I’m still a Dark Magician. Who says a Daemonalter/Satanist,  Blood Chaos,  Necromancer can’t be bathed in pink and enjoy cartoons all day lol.

The Council gives me the most in depth working ever. After all I start with the 8 of them, and they are some heavy hitters.

I’ve become whole, I’ve been able to let my guard down and a facade that has protected me due to my own lack of confidence.  Not anymore. I have all the cconfidence right now, and I am building up more and more through my own faith in myself, my workings and my relationships. There is nothing like having a partner that supports you, grows with you, helps you, you learn from them and vice versa, and is honest with you. You can’t find that nowadays and it’s a blessing to find one that is on the same path as me. That has ideas bigger than mine. After all he created the House and every working I’m doing for these 30 days. The couple that works together, stays together lol.

My card draw for today.

I am not even going to describe it or give my interpretation.  It speaks for itself.

#domagick Day 5

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , , on December 5, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

We Are One As One. 

My chant for working with My King, BaelZeBul. The mixture of Dragons Blood and Sandalwood has just taken my over. I gave my normal blood offerings and anointed my altar as usual. 

With this working I was walking in a desert,  looking down I had on my gold and white dress from many years ago. I walk to the castle that seems to be just out the ordinary.  I open the large dark door and when I turn around the doors start to fall away like sand. I turn around round and walk up the only flight of winding stairs. I see him. On his throne. Looking at me. My King. He grands my hand and leads me to the empty thrown beside him. There is nothing but around round vast hallway in front of me now. There are doors all over the place. He said here is where I created everything in my life. From good to bad. It had brought me to where I am, and I will continue to rise. He stood up, and pulled me up with him. He twirled me around (and lately my Daemons have been ballroom dancing with me, but I’m not complaining ), and I ended up in a large room. 

It was decked out in purples and blues, all deep colors. In the middle was a very large and very black candle. It had to be 8 in wide and around 2 ft tall. The flame however was red. I sat cross legged and hovered in front of the candle as it was not touching the floor. I held out my left hand and when I looked in my right, there was this dragon lancet. The dragons tongue was a small blade with a tube attached that I saw go through the body of the dragon. So I did what I knew to do. I pressed the button under the dragons chin, the blade shot out and it stayed on my finger. The nlood flowed through the body and I moved it the the oh candle flame. Instead of popping like it always does, my blood wrapped around the hehe flame and became it. I let theohehehe button go and when I looked at my finger it was healed. 

Looking up I saw BaelZeBul. He was in all dark blue garb with a black sash arundel his waist and both forarms. His dragon staff was wrapped around his left arm. I knew what was going to happen next. I use to dread it  but now I enjoy it  he doesn’t kiss me in a runs sense we arundel familiar with, he transfers what I need into me directly. He vomits snakes, soiders, scarabs, and other death bugs and serpents directly into my mouth. I always have enhanced sight, better flow with my magic and new ideas that where there but refreshed. During that kiss, we sink into the tar, because that is what it smells like. It’s thick, black, and it burns my skin aND heals me at the same time. 

My card pulls for today where both protection cards, Go the Distance and The Fates.

For Going the Distance it’s a time to listen to my soul and let go of things that are not important.  Learn to conserve my energy and be selective about where to expend it  

The Fates is telling me certain situations are just meant to be. So if I open up and tend align myself with The Fates, I can have peace of mind of those things that I can not change and then I will have serenity.  

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