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28 Day Working Recap (Day 28)

Posted in Rituals, Workings and all my thinking's on the Occult with tags , , , , , , , , on 04/24/2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

LATE POST!!!!!!!

Let me tell you I am beyond drained. I did a shit load of invocations, got yelled at and then I was just going crazy.

Now the beginning was really good, I started out with my Patron Leviathan, and from there I let the workings dictate what I needed to do to clear my mind. I swear, I sit with retards all day, well about 2-3 of them and I just want to reach over and slit their throats…just think of it as a late term abortion. But I have to calm my violent thoughts and push them out my mind. I mean all that tension is going to drive me crazy…well crazier if you think about it.

I worked through the tarot and I have less than 10 cards left. So I am waiting for those to be finish before I put up part one of my interpretation. The cards themselves have brought so much insight into this reflection of who I was. It also helped that my partner was the one tapping into my energy and pulling the cards for me, being an empath he was bringing things out that I didn’t want to face yet, shit. But it had to be down. Some days the info was looking right at me, other days I had to rack my brain to realize he pulled deep from my core, on those days it rattled me and frustrated me. But what was I to do, stop? Hell no! I kept going. I actually like that, and plan on working with my other 2 tarot decks the same way. See how each deck resonates with me and what I can pull from them and myself.

I sat down with my guardian to go through all my workings and got a few projects pushed back, and quite a few moved to the top of the list, some on standby and waiting for the major projects to be done. I attempted a mock schedule today for the next 245 day working, and that went to shit this morning. We have this MLT week at school so we have all these dumb ass projects that we have to do that will be cutting into my spiritual and rebuilding time, plus studying takes at least 4 hours out my day minimum, not to mention the puppies, my family, and doctor appointments and the travel time. So I am like shit. Have to rearrange them so I can get everything down and leaving time during the weekday for stupid shit. I was able to get in my morning and nightly prayers, and visualizations in. I read/finished one of my books, and I am now blogging which I should have done yesterday. But it caught the best of me and I was wrapped up in last minute cleaning, organizing and school prep.

I did a lot of invocations, the 9 Divinities, Lilith, Satan, Leviathan, Sekhmet, Hecate, Lucifer and Belial. I did a New Moon and a Full Moon ritual. I did a 6 day ritual and a 2 day initiation. I started back on a class that I need to buy more clay, more wood and I need a wood burning kit. I just made a list of all the shit I am going to need and it is a lot of it.

I also started working with poisons, taking them slowly, a few drops at a time and working my way up. Steph made me some tinctures, and Ginger gave me some good ass advice and information. So I am set to go and so far, no ill effects, and I am not trying to see any either. I do listen to my guardian as he hates the idea, because I am hard headed, but not this type of hardheaded, I listen very closely.

I have 6 Covens I am actively apart of, and doing work in and for. I have 3 path workings that are all being revamped and worked on. I have 6 personal workings that I am working on for myself, and the huge 245 working is apart of all of these things. I have some rough roads to go down, a lot of tasks given to me, a lot of assignments to complete and plenty of writings to get down.  I have goals of what I want to do everyday, because hey, I am still human and I do forget and slack off. If you say you don’t , you are full of shit.

What I want to and have almost tried to put into everyday was the following:

Morning prayer to patron and affirmation/visualization

Evening prayer to matron and visualization

Grounding with Belial

Tarot working

Conscious eating, exercise

Time to communicate with guardian

Yoga, Psychic workings, trance work

Yeah I got 6, almost of those things done which is good. It adds up to 3 hours a day.  I spend 5 hours in school (actually I am at school around 630 am and leave around 130) so actually 7 hours to include driving. Then roughly 3-4 hours of homework and study ( I am in a medical program so this shit is no joke, 15 wk course done in 3 wk, talk about being fucking accelerated) so school work is roughly 11 hours a day but luckily only 4 days a week. But that doesn’t include time to bath and wind done ad eating and talking to the family and breathing so add like another 3-4 hours. That brings me up to 13-15 hrs and I haven’t done any spirit work yet lol. So add in the 3 hours and I am up to 16-18 hours. Now I only get like 5 hours of sleep in during the weekday…sometimes less depending on if its test day or I am working on a school assignment. On the weekends I have a better chance at doing what needs to be done, which is sleeping lol, having a day with no school work done, and running errands and trying to get shit together. Man it is difficult. But it is something that I can and will manage. No one said this shit was easy, but it is worth it.

I relaxed and had days where I didn’t do a lot of spirit work, just the Goetia and Tarot cards, and those days I just slept lol. I did a lot of dream work, so I guess that counts lol. Oh and when I need to go to the doctors, that is like 2-4 hours of bullshit out your day because we all hate going to the doctors, with these long as waits for no fucking reason lol.

But I managed to get through all 28 days and do something everyday. The last day I did my goetia, tarot, and my ritual and invocation to Sehkmet, my Matron. She closed out the workings and it was beautiful.

 

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28 Day Working, Day 27

Posted in Rituals, Workings and all my thinking's on the Occult with tags , , on 04/21/2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

The invocation to Amducious is next to do today, along with the normal stuff for the day. I am getting real close to the finale and the posts are getting hella short lol. But they will be made up for when I do through and break down the goal of what I was doing, how it worked out, what I learned and what I need to improve on.

28 Day Working, Day 26

Posted in Rituals, Workings and all my thinking's on the Occult with tags , , , on 04/20/2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Inovcation to Eurynomous, Goetia and Tarot. I actually have one more ritual to do and it is in 2 days.

I have come a long way from this year. I mean I have gotten an amazing amount of work done, I am in contact with people from my past that has greatly gave me more motivation for my workings.  I am restructuring classes, myself and school so it can all be rolled into one.

I have a few trips that I will be making this year. Now only if I don’t get frustrated and stop thinking bad thoughts about why it happened, or complaining that it wasn’t meant to be and just realize that people are lazy and dicks, then I will be much better. You bee surprised how down I get when I have things planned and they don’t go through. I really beat myself up, but I am hoping and slowly working towards doing that. You can’t rush progress, you never know how fast things will heal, and trying to put a limit on complete rehabilitation of mental issues and emotional problems; just doesn’t cut it.

I will also have to cut all my nails soon. The thing I hate about my Medical program is that you  cannot have nails, or “exotic makeup” or look like a chick lol. But hey whatever you can’t win them all.

28 Day Working, Day 23

Posted in Rituals, Workings and all my thinking's on the Occult with tags , , , , , , on 04/17/2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Aside for the Goetia and Tarot I have 2 rituals to do tonight. It should be very interesting, One takes about a couple hours and the other leads into dream working.

This is my last week before I have to go back to class. So I will see how my day goes because I need to schedule for my workings coming up. I will probably type up some of the tarot cards interpretations over the week and have that scheduled to come out.

Man this has really made it so much easier. Now when it comes to journaling this next step it won’t be every day. Fuck that lol. Once a week is good enough. That way everything else can be spaced out and I can actually put up a months worth of other shit so I can spend more time writing down how I did for the week.

28 Day Working, Day 22 with updates

Posted in Rituals, Workings and all my thinking's on the Occult with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on 04/16/2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

This is my last week!!!!!!!

Holy shit. I didn’t think I could do it honestly. But with scheduling the posts, it actually gave me more freedom to really get in an do my thang. Some of the rituals I did around 10 pm or later, so I damn sure wasn’t going to blog about it later lol.

But they came out and it was amazing. OK, so let me see whats been happening from last week and beyond. So the ritual and invocation to Satan was amazing, had me wide open. Then I did an invocation to Belial and Hecate and he yelled at me, and she made me cry lol. Like damn!!!!!! Tf! So when it came time for Lilith, I am like, scared at this point lmao! Like dude, I can’t take mom whooping my ass, she always tends to be more hands on as a parent lol!!!! But it wasn’t that bad, lol. The full moon ritual with Selene was pretty damn amazing. Never did something so long in my life lol, but I really enjoyed it. And honestly, I have no idea why or where she came from, but she popped in my mind. That means she is on her way into my pantheon. I just love it when they do this. It makes me feel really special, like holy shit, I must really be doing something right you know.

I was looking at all the tarot cards I pulled and started reading my interpretations of them, and man, once you see how they read you can totally understand why they yelled at me and brought out those emotions. It is all part of the breaking down and rebuilding process. No one said this shit would be easy, but to pass that threshold and achieve higher lengths, we have to fight through what holds us back. And 9 times out of 10, it is us. We are the ones cursing ourselves, making it bad on ourselves and shit. Well I know it is some people who are total dicks and damn near 100% of it is done by other people lol!!!!! But for the most part, we do it to ourselves. I think that makes it easier to fix since you KNOW the problem.

I am on day 3 of the Posiedon ritual and it is intense. Clarification, wisdom, showing emotional tides and just a connection to all. I did an invocation to Flereous and that was pretty good. I wasn’t sure what to expect but all I can say is a strong elemental current hit me and I will be adding him to my elemental pathworking. The images where just way to strong. It got my creative juices flowing and I was just tearing it up last night. Talk about lighting a fire under my ass lol!

So on to today’s workings. I will continue my reading of the Tarot (as they are getting really good at identifying and syncing to me), the Goetia is going smooth (I have around 6 or so to do before class next Sunday), and I have my reviews next to me ready to be scheduled. Well the ones I already done.

Today is really light besides the above, as I have also included an invocation to Verrine.

Now it is on to me to schedule the rest of the week and prepare for the finale of my 28 days! I must do this again. Seriously. I also suggest that people look for other Occultists/Magicians who offer workings and do it. You would be surprised at how good it feels to do workings every day, especially if you don’t or don’t do as much as you would like to, or feel comfortable doing. Get out that zone!!!!

Go find one of your favorite books and work through them, go on amazon and find these chap books, ask your friends what books would they recommend you to work through. If you can’t find inspiration from your friends and colleagues, then it is time to drop them and keep it moving. Harsh? Maybe. But why would you want to be around people who don’t move, stagnation is not something a Magician should be surrounded by.

*And no…not every friend has to be a magician, but for fucks sake…keep people around you who challenge you to better yourself. Hell it can be to go hiking or try a new sport, but keep people around you who grow and make your life worth living! Not the thousands of fucking cocksuckers who are miserable as shit and try to bring you down to their level. Grow, spread your wings. and fucking shine!!!!!!*

 

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