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A Look Back

Posted in Buzz Worthy Posts with tags , , , , on September 17, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

When I was younger, I didn’t have those childhoods that those in the occult say they did. You know, playing with witches, and not being interested in “normal childhood activities”.  I loved playing with dolls, action figures, stuffed animals and board games and video games. I love sports, I enjoy them all really, and I never was one that gravitated to only the “occulty” items in the store. I love pink, and other bright colors, and I stayed to myself and never really left the house. I definitely wasn’t trying to open the veil or look for creatures, them fuckers found me and I just dealt with it. It scared the shit out of me, but hell it isn’t like I really had anyone to talk to about it, even know I have a very select few I can talk about things with.

I never wanted to escape my reality and move into another dimension as a child. As an adult I want to get the fuck away from all these fuckers and humans and never be bothered again. I really can murk everyone in my life and have no problem sitting in jail for it, it has become that bad. As a child I only focused on the mundane, even though the spiritual was pulling me; I always resisted.

I didn’t really fall into it until I was 10, and even then for 3 years I was going through literally hell and psychosis in fighting against my gift, my calling, and my blood. I started writing more, and it was a part of my life that I loved. I started to get deeper into the darker things and aspects of life around that age, and it all centered on death. Only death, and torture, i even won awards when I was younger on my murder stories. I guess it concerned some of the people at the ceremonies that a child under 10, wrote a better murder/torture story then teenagers. It is a gift what can I say.

Almost 30 years later, and I want to connect to this feelings and actions again. but in a more constructive and better applied way. Focusing on my chosen path and gifts, understanding what They are showing me, and letting it flow through me with guidance and help from others who words actually mean something to me.

Being able to think, and have things shown to you, to lose a lot of shit, and watch people fall away in front of you, really makes you think…what is next.

Well I know, and it isn’t worrying about anyone else. It is what it is. All I am thinking about honestly is some chicken nuggets, fries, maybe pizza and wings, some beer, tacos, and dessert. Can’t forget the wine and mac and cheese. It really is the only thing that makes sense in this world. And animals, they are the best!

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June Month Bust

Posted in Buzz Worthy Posts with tags , , , on July 27, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

SO I called myself doing a Body/Mind/Soul detox and yoga/pilates lol. Well that went to shit the first week. I did start reading a couple of books, but the amount of researchable wrong information that they put in it made me stop. I just threw them in the trash, and we know how I am with books and other reading material. But I wouldn’t pass that on to anyone at all.

Instead I just wrote three rituals I am doing for my love’s order, and a connection for my research into the 7 Heads. I do have a decent August working coming up. I am working on collecting 365 tarot spreads so I can do a reading a day. At first I thought that I was going to do specific ones per day, well besides the moons and the sabbats, the others will be done whenever I pull them. It should be interesting. I have collected 290, thanks in part of my AA tarot group that posts some amazing spreads.

I am thinking of making 4 jars a month. No matter what it be, but to get more hands on. Be it teas (currently working on), root workings, incenses, or whatever else I can think of, I want it to be more natural to me.

I do need to make a few lists for the items I need and just by a lot of shit and stock myself up so I don’t have to keep modifying workings. Though I don’t need them, they do help the focus. I think making a few of my supplies as oppose to buying will always strengthen my workings, but it will also awaken more ideas and talents within me.

I spent this month focusing on class as I am in my toughest class yet Hematology. Man it is a bitch lol. I will have to do an updated academic post on my long and unexpected journey into more bullshit, but closer to my goal.

That is about it for now. I will be posting more when August comes for the workings. So stay tune.

Moderation Day 25

Posted in Buzz Worthy Posts, Occult with tags , , , , , , on June 25, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

I knew this was coming, and I really need to keep it up. I hate when I back slide because I let people knock me off my game.

2 water, 1 earth

What is in excess in my life, how can I remove it, what will be a healthy way to control it

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Reading the Chakras Day 18

Posted in Buzz Worthy Posts with tags , , , , , , on June 18, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

My chakra alignment is pretty decent. Of course there are things that I need to work on, but who doesn’t. Not to much to say about this spread, it speaks for itself.

1 earth, 1 air, 2 water and 3 trumps.

How are my chakras working with one another, and are there any more cleansing I need to do for them as a whole.

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Character Day 6

Posted in Buzz Worthy Posts with tags , , , , , , on June 6, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

This was an interesting spread. It seems like no matter how much I shuffle and cut, I always will have at last 1 of the same cards from previous reads. Odd but intriguing.

This spread contained 4 water, 2 earth, 2 air, and a Trump.

Questions asked?

Hero?

Dominate outward qlty?

Dominate inward qlty?

Goal?

Motivation?

Stakes?

Need?

Source?

Effect on goal?

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Paimon (Goetia #9)

Posted in Buzz Worthy Posts on June 6, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Love how he puts them all together. Mine isn’t as neat as his though.

V.K. Jehannum

Names: Paimon, Paimonia, Paymon
Legions: 100 or 200
Date: June 11-21; April 30-May 4; August 2-7
D/N: Diurnal
Direction: Northwest; West
Zodiac: Taurus 10-14; Gemini 20-30; Leo 10-14
Gematria: 186; 187
Element: Water; Air; Earth
Rank: King
Tarot: 6 of Disks/Pentacles; 10 of Swords
Color: Yellow, Red, White, Black, Dark Blue, Green
Subordinates: Basmijael, Kebersa, Astolit, Bebal, Abalam, Azael, Carahim, Hachamel, Agasaly, Eberon, Aglafys, Dison
Qlipha: Gashkelah (Primary) (Jupiter/Astaroth); Thagirion (Black Sun; Belfegore), Thaumiel (Neptune & Pluto/Moloch & Satan)
Planet: Black Sun (Primary), Sun (Primary), Jupiter (Almost Primary), Mars (Least Affiliated), Mercury, Neptune
Attributions: Mercury, Frankincense, Coltsfoot, Bindweed, Gum Arabic, Balm of Gilead, Gold

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Above: Artistic Depiction of Paimon for Pathworking and an Altar Piece
(Picture Credit: G.A. Roseberg)

Paimon is the King of Noble Savagery and Guardian of the Depths and Subconscious. While primarily listed as a solar king of the Goetia, he has myriad alternative planetary and Qliphothic…

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245 Day Working! TF am I smoking?!?!?

Posted in Buzz Worthy Posts with tags , , , , , on April 15, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Nothing. No seriously I am completely sober. Well…ok slightly drunk…but still coherent.

This really isn’t an honest to goddess pathworking with rituals everyday. What this is, is me improving myself. I had a session with my guardian and he pretty much reemed my ass. Lol. There is a huge wedge between my spiritual work and my mundane life.  I thought it was good but apparently I was wrong like shit. What this 28 day working is telling me, is that I still have a lot of shit to overcome, and I need to find a better way of fitting my practice into my schedule. I mean I do things everyday, but apparently that is shitty. So off to create a new schedule.

To get this started, I talked to my guardian for like an hour or 3, and pretty much brought down all the books from my bedroom and basement and placed them on my dining room table. Sophie was not to happy about that, since they surrounded her food bowl. Go fig. But I wrote down everything that I have and am currently working on. After a good back and forth and me listening, and being read, and listening, and listening again, I organized everything into 4 categories as requested, in which 2 of them are high priority.  The 2 can take a back seat right now.

Once those were ID’d, I then grabbed one of my many blank spiral notebooks (seriously I should buy stock in Staples) and proceeded to write down the things that need to get done, what I hope to accomplish with them, and the beginning of a daily and weekly schedule. I mean shit- I need to say my prayers every morning and night- not when I remember them. I need to incorporate yoga, walking, psychic building and meditation time in everyday. I need to be consciously eating and not just mindlessly eating. I need to feed my brain more (and that is going to be a feat). I need to make sure my spiritual and mundane life is one. Because, like they said, “You are doing a shitty job”.

I do have the idea of working with the Necronomicon deck during this time. At first, I was going to pull 2 cards a week and work under their influence. Then I scrapped that because it didn’t fit. So secondly I was going to work with one card a day and let it guide me like I am doing now. But that didn’t fill right either. Then, lol, I was like hmmmm…I took that tarot class last month so maybe I will just practice my readings with the Necro deck. It is attuned to me and my deep subconscious so this may be a better option. (See…it pays to attend as meaning classes as you can. Never know when it may come in handy!)

I have everything sitting in its separate area. I still need to put more books together and I need a few book bags to make sure all the books and binders and whatnot, are put away properly. And to give you a glimpse to what I am talking about, I have:

11 binders, 7 composition books, 6 empty spiral notebooks, 18 reading and working books, shit load of lancets, daggers, clay, pens/pencils/markers/, tape, scissors, hand sanitizer, stickies, hole puncher, candles and etc. LOL!

Needless to say my candle supply is becoming really low. Like I have enough to finish the month out, maybe a couple of weeks into May. So you know what that means, I have to make a list of candles, herbs, and other items to get up to carry me for a few months and then make another run. I mean I am going to be very irked doing my workings in the summer, because I already generate a lot of heat. We don’t turn the AC on till June (we all know how bipolar the weather is), so I can always go into my basement where it is cool year round lol, and relax. Matter of fact the basement is about to get a makeover.

I can say this, being back in my parents house is weird. I never imagined being a divorcee at 36 and back in school lol. I mean shit! What this experience has taught me was that I really don’t know myself, or those I were in a relationship with, or my parents; and I am glad to be back with them so we can learn each other (I mean I left home at 17, joined the military and 20 years later I am back!) I have been through a lot. There were experiences that I needed to get me to where I am now. I am grateful to be able to even come home to the support of my family. Besides, I really do believe in communal living. Times are tough and we need all the help and support we can get. I guess I am getting nervous with my parent’s getting older as well. Who wouldn’t really? So I really wouldn’t move far away. Well maybe far away were we won’t bug each other, but close enough where I can either catch a flight or drive home if need be. Plus I get to help my mother make her own portable altar so you know I am hype about that!

My path is medicine (spiritual and mundane). My gods are all healers, or death related, and enlightenment and also in a place where they are all about understanding the depths of a person. I didn’t take all those psych classes for no reason, just another degree I want to obtain as it works directly on my mundane and especially the spiritual path. It is amazing when you see things clearly for the first time, in a long time. Now I have till the end of the year to get myself in a good practice, to slow down and make sure that I am really becoming who I AM and not what I think I am you know. Not rushing anything, not beating myself up and just immersing myself in all aspects in my life. I need everything to be seamless.

I do have some crazy ass projects coming up, and I will fill you in later. I have some reviews coming up as well and maybe a reworking of this blog and my other one. My drop some categories, combine and/or add…I swear man, this is going to be a challenge that is going to wreck my nerves lol. But it is all worth it.

I mean I need to be able to: do my school work, my spiritual work, tend to my classes and students, work on my relationships, enjoy me off time and finish Season 12 of Supernatural. Put a dent in my Netflix and Hulu queue, get reacquainted with my PS3 and 4, and 360 and Wii. With the Wii I will be bowling like a champ lol!

I mean, gosh, time does fly when you are trying to shake the world and put your stamp on it 🙂