Self-work is difficult

I mean you get to what is going on in your life. Your guardians are there, helping you, guiding you. And what happens, you get ripped apart to help build you back up. That has got to be the worst thing, well not really but it is, in getting yourself back on track.

I love the fact that they removed items from my path so I can truly focus on what I am supposed to focus on. I mean damn, it is a lot of shit that needs my attention, and there are things that I didn’t think I would be doing that I am. But it is all for the better right?

It better be, my emotions are a wreck lol!

If you don’t get rid of things that are a waste, or things that are stagnant, you pretty much going to screw yourself. So I am here, with my emotions just a wreck, taking parts of me out and throwing them away, and I look and feel horrible lol. At the end of the year, before my 9 year anniversary as a dedicated Satanist, I should be flushed, in a better position and ready to start my new training lol.

Damn this is going to be a rough year lol!

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