Losing the Desire

For as long as I can remember I have always loved women. I only messed with women. From like age 7 to 16. Then I met a boy and all hell broke loose. Went down the hill from there. Apparently I don’t know how to pick a good man or a decent one, and just let bullshit happen to me instead of just walking away.

As I turned 19, I realize that men are pretty much garbage and started back dating women. Those bitches where crazy. Worse than the men. But then again they were my choices. So I dated both and just tried to see what’s going on. Most females I wanted to be with pretty much only wanted to play and go back to their man. I, on the other hand was looking for a relationship. I swear women are crazy you know.

At 25 I started losing the desire for men. It would be more of a back and forth. Some years dating both, some years dating one or the other.

Now that I’m 32 I know I am looking for females to be with for life. Which is utterly difficult because I’m poly and they just don’t understand what it means. I have two men in my life. A husband and a boyfriend. That’s more than enough dick and I’m kinda bored with it. I have a female friend, but she seems like the rest, more interested in dudes than a feminine relationship. So my boyfriend told me to go out and date. See if there is a female out there who excepts me for me and my life choices. I have a lot of friends who are happy in their poly relationship. Some living in the same home, others who don’t. They do let me know that it takes time.

I’m not looking for a female who wants a threesome or an orgy. I’m looking for a woman who wants me, is open minded and understand that I can love more than one person at a time, and understand the meaning of a honest, Open and highly communicative relationship. Intimacy is important but understanding is better.

So I think I’m going to do just that. Date. Enjoy myself and make new friendships. Life is to sort to conform to unhappiness. So I’m making my own.

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