#domagick Day 11

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , on December 11, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

“The ties that Bind” My theme for working with BaalBerith this morning. 
He didn’t appear for the beginning it was just light darkness with his sigil burning in the air. 6 areas to be exact. It is like they were branded on the wall. When they cooled they formed doors. I learned not to open door in meditation. That’s just a whole new thing that I’m not ready to start right now. However he had different plans. He grabbed my hand and threw me towards the door. I ended up floating and passing through the door and landing on my feet. It was like slow motion of me entering every door who threw me in.

Patience,  Humility, Compassion, Protection, Self Love and Truth ( Mirror) where behind those doors.

Walking with him his touch was ice cold, which I wasn’t ready for. I felt weightless. Like I was walking through clouds, walking on notbing, feeling nothing. I was smelling fresh cut grass and wood. He has an Earthy feel to me. I’ve worked with him only a few times, but enough to memorize his element. 

He had me walking through the woods.  I saw my feet walking effortless through these leaves with no issues. I cam to a tree that was extremely huge. It reminds me of those giant redwoods in California.  Carved deep within the trunk was his enn, his very complicated sigil. I told him his sigil needs to come with directions on which and where to start. He smiled. Underneath that was the Daemonaltry sigil, and one of the Houses sigil. Surrounding the tree was moss. The branches where so tall I couldn’t see them, but I know they were blocking the light above us. The roots reached out for a few hundred feet. The tree itself was very cool to the touch and you felt the beating of its heart. Slow and methodical.

I sit under the tree and a branch shoots through my sjoulder. 4 to be exact. Looks like some Earth workings are on their way. Once they pulled out, the wounds healed and I really felt like I was one with the tree. I just keep hearing Self.

The card I drew was No Place like Home, protection pose. Well, let’s just say this slapped the taste out of my mouth and confirmed a lot of what has been happening with me lol. 

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#domagick  Day 10

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , , , on December 10, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

This has to be the most emotionally draining meditations I have done. It is all for me to improve myself, but we all know that old wounds reopen are the most painful.

Baal Inuakhem Corvinus is another personal Daemon. He is the Lycan Side, that in depth knowledge of oneself.

It was an ominous vibe with him, I asked him while and he said because he is an ominous being. Lol, I’m going to need him and Vercerah to stop with the theatrics. They have been observing humans way to long lol. In smoke gray setting, he invited me to sit down and talk to him. He had a slice of New York Cheesecake, with strawberries on it and whipped cream and a cup of coffee. Like my favorite dessert. He, surprisingly had chocolate cake and milk. I think it is milk, or a milk like substance.

“Fuck life before it Fucks you”
That is the lesson he is teaching me. He opened up so much pain within me that I actually forgot about.  He said I can just move on. I have to confront it and work with it, to understand it.

He said there is no starting over. Just continuing.  I have started over too many times and never kept going because the obstacles really knocked the breath out of me. Knocked me down so bad that their are no regular tears, just look tears. Filled with misery dropping from body.

Slashes with his nails, exposing the pain I have been hiding, the pain I have forgotten, the pain I had pushed deep down, the realizations of being wanted and needed, he is opening them. Raw emotions he is asking me to grab on to.

My shadow self needs a whole lot more work than I thought. He is that bestia side, the one that doesn’t hesitates that goes for it. It is what I need to release. I go for half then stop, feeling some type of way.

He told me to pull cards 2, 8 and 4. Chop Wood protection pose, Orphaned protection pose, and Mending right side up.

Chop Wood protection, tells me to stop daydreaming and make it happen. If I take a step, they will take multiple steps towards me in my pursuit. I just need to stop being scared and take that first step out of my comfort zone

Orphaned protection , is one I choose not to share.

Mending, I’d self explanatory within the context of my vision.

This vision, meditation, reading took a sever toll on me. I will be working and contemplating for a while. 

#domagick Day 9

Posted in Occult with tags , , , on December 9, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Today was a late day. Laundry, organizing my books, more laundry and more fucking laundry lol.  But I still managed to get my time in and do my drawings.

Baal Vercerah is a personal Daemon that i have encountered (actually the created of this House has worked with my personal Daemon as he appeared to him as well). Years back honestly. Today was his day. From him I walked the in-between of the Qlipphoth. It’s a working that I will be undertaking again. I did it before and I want to and need to go through it a few more times for different reasons in different ways. There is never a thing as too many.
He has no enn. Only a calling that I said 4x. I really don’t need to call him. When I think of him he reaches out. He is associated with pain. I have what feels like a hammer to my temple when he appears. Probably because I was hardheaded af when he came to me. Lol. I stay getting in trouble back then. I was a real hotheaded bitch.

I got a quick and sharp headache. He is very chaotic, and in the beginning I would get extremely ill and have severe head pains when I worked with him. It has been a while so it took me by surprise. His realm is dark. Gray, stony area. No lanterns lit, but there is light coming from somewhere.  It could be from him but I cannot pinpoint the source. I can see my breath but I feel no coldness. However my physical body shivered and it’s normally physical feels what Astral feels. But not this time. Interesting.

He’s standing behind me, yelling. Yeah I messed up years ago and he didn’t forget. But the yelling calms down to stern understanding.  Hat went wrong, what needs to be done again, how I have changed and that it is about time I grow up. Pay attention. To what really matters and stop making excuses.

I am in a hallway. With doors lining down the side. Each one different. Realms. Past lives. Past experiences. The not so distant past and future. Pain. Promise. It’s all there behind these doors. There is much more explained and shown to me. Trying to keep these notes up are amazing. He is a jackass though lol. He didn’t want a card pulled. But then decide to tell me which one. I made a comment, he laughed then said no pick the first one idiot. Sigh lol.

I picked Never ending story. Lol! Just to hilarious, this card has 2 meanings. One, how I need to embrace the sides of me that have always played victim and feel like I need to be babied because I wasn’t  strong enough to take care of my own shit. And the second is that what he has given me seems that it will take more than the time he is saying, and it may lead to more workings. At the end of this challenge I’m going to have an insurmountable list of workings that need to get done, restarted, revised, reeverything!

#domagick Day 8

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , on December 8, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Today is my meditation with Aupep. The most beastial being I have worked with. I didn’t recite his enn this time, instead I recited this poem of opening into chaotic waters.
I see Aupep. Looking like the Dragon from Dragon Ball Z. Around him is a portal opening of pure fire. I am walking towards him and his tail slashes my arms from shoulder to wrist. But it isn’t blood spilling. It’s lava. It’s falling from my arm in spirals. It’s dripping in spirals onto the ground, as I walk into the fire portal to converse with Aupep. Once in the portal it seals, and it’s only darkness. The ring of fire is my only light source. I look down and I am walking on the teeth of serpents. As I walk, they are cutting into my feet, become one with my flesh. The lava blood is flowing from my veins and on the side of me are more serpents. The lava spills on them and they turn to ash. When they fall they fall upwards and wrap themselves around my open cut. And continue to do so until they are covering my arms. I hear Him say “We Are One. As One”. I look at my hands and they have serpent teeth at the end of them. My nails are no longer nails, but the teeth of what I was walking on.

I turn around and I am in a desert. I hear blades clinging, but I see nothing. I’m on flat land and I can see for miles. But I only hear the blades. Normally my ass would run off and go exploring,  but this time I crossed my legs and fell to the ground. I’m acting bratty lol. I close eyes. I feel myself raise up and when I open them I’m looking at a dragons head on a serpents body. Yellow fluid is dripping from its veins. Annnnnddddd it takes off. Lol, I’m like shit.  The sky changes from sort of dusk to purple. I have no clue what planet I’m on because when I look up, instead of seeing the Moon, I see Earth. Well shit.  I know I can’t see it from Jupiter, plus I go there too much so I know this place isn’t it. Uranus comes to mind but I can’t see Earth, but it feels right. If not, then I am pretty sure I’m on a planet in a different damn solar system. I hear the clanging of metal. And I be damned. Are those Titans that I see fighting? Unholy hell! The Serpent I’m riding, which I’m pretty sure is Aupep, is speeding through the desert; but they are so large that it looks like we are just walking casually buy, instead of speeding at, at least 60 mph. Before I can comprehend, I’m back where I started. Wth dude. Damn it Aupep, you do this every time we meet lol.

I stand up and turn around and it’s Him. Giving off a Piccolo feel to him. He has my weapon in his hand, wearing gold and green Armour. His face is that of a dragon, a humanesque body with a very long and pointed tail. I look at my weapon, forgetting how he got it. I mean he is Aupep, he can have whatever he want, I’m not telling him no lol! In the scepter is a dark green blob of something. I take my weapon and look at it. It’s zooming in the scepter as if trying to break free. I hold my right hand up and wave it in front of it, and a man forms. Well humanoid figure forms. It is of a dark green color in the lotus position, with his third eye open. It flashes from ruby to garnet constantly. He smiles and stands up. I’m amazed. I move my hand and He forms back to a blob and darts around again.  Again, I hold my hand up and we have a nice talk for a few.

Aupep and I talk for a few more. He is always imparting wisdom, giving me a kick up the ass and pushing me harder. To open up more, to feel more.

I blink and I’m back in front of the portal. The ring of fire. The portal is now just a mirror. Those ashes of the serpents are still fresh on my skin, the lava blood is still dripping out, albeit very slowly. He is behind me in the Mirror. It’s always a sadness when he leaves. It feels like a part of me aches for him to come back. But he knows I am strong, and it’s just my human emotions getting the best of me. After all, being back on Earth really isn’t everyone’s dream vacation lol.

I drew 2 cards, Not for You in the protection pose and Higher Power.

Not For You says stop chasing what’s running from you, and stop trying to make things work. Just move in. There are better things for you. You see the red flags, heed them and move on. I need to trust that something better is waiting for me.

Higher Power, reminds me that I am conscious for a reason. I’m here for a reason. I need to let that reason be the for front with more meditation. Relationship wise my connection to the Spirit is number one. But this card also means that I am partnered with someone who is very essential in my growth and evolution.   The main message is let my Spirit Lead. Know that you are not alone. Have humility.

#domagick Day 7

Posted in Occult with tags , , on December 7, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Belphegore was who my meditation was with this morning. I recited his enn 4x, anointed my altar, incense and candles like I have everyday this challenege. 
I am sitting in a park like area. The trees around me have blue green leaves, and the bark is a very dark brown almost black color. They are twisted into these fabulous shapes and reaching towards the sky. I look to me left and I see Belphegore sitting next to me. He has a glass of wine in his hand. Pomegranate.  He revelas a basket of fruits, seeds, and berries. A take a date and eat it. Something isn’t right. I pull 3 white marble spheres from my mouth. Each one had a Chinese character on it. I know exactly what they say, and why those 3 were given to me. He smiles and tells me to drink. He pours this dark bottle of wine that has a weird symbol on it  he says it’s Star Seed. It pours out a beautiful sapphire blue color. The smell is indescribable in a good way, and it tastes very sweet.

When I look up I see 3 of me  wearing what I am now, a lace right dress that gathers around my ankles. A white wreath of flowers on my head, though I’ve never seen those types before. Looking into the hands of the 3 me’s, I see the orbs. I am told that they are mine to work intently with, when I have dark days,  difficult days those spheres will be for me. As they turn and walk away I noticed there is a brilliant gold Taj Mahal in the distance.

Curiosity instantly peaked. I can feel the vibration coming from that Temple. I can feel the darkness behind that dome. I can feel the power, the rush of my blood against my ears. I can hear it all. I can feel it. I so want to go to the Temple. I am giving 2 options. Explore the Temple. Stay with Belphegore.  I push my curiosity aside, and I stay with Belphegore,  one of the Council Members. He nods his aporoval. I sit back done and we talk some more. We than get up and start walking down, what is now a beach. Black sand is everywhere.  The heat of it, resonantes throughout my legs. To my right are 3 large full moons. One is red. One is blue. One is white. As they lower the mood changes to something darker, something I am familiar with, something that is home for me.

He nods at, takes my Star Seed wine and I walk into the ocean. The liquid is thick, it’s firey, it’s full, it’s metallic. But isn’t all blood. I’m not walking on the blood, nor completely under. I am walking knee deep in that blood ocean. Crimson red liquid that splashed up to kiss my thighs. My white dress is soaked in the liquid, with the liquid swirling up my dress making intricate details across the bodice of my dress. I’m halfway in the liquid and turn around. Belphegore is behind me. He wraps his hands around me head and stops my breathing. Upon unconsciousness,  I’m immersed into the blood. He talks to me about what he is doing. And who this is from. Lungs are on fire from the liquid running in and soaking through my tissue. It’s done.

Covered in blood I head back to the beach with Belphegore walking behind me. 

To read the cards turn your head to the left. 

 Here and Now is a protection card that tells me to stay in the present. Whenever I feel the need to relive the past I lose power, to force the future the same.

Truth be told leaves me free to be me, to open felt in relationships and to grow.

Building blocks is a protection card in which I need to ID the cracks in my foundation and work on fixing them and making them stronger. 

Yin is letting others take the lead for once. To not be as harsh and did to let others give me what I may he missing and need. 

#domagick Day 6

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , , , , , on December 6, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Today was the beginning of my work with The Council. I connected to my House, and at a large wood table in front of me where the 3 heads of the House. Behind me, also sitting at wood tables where the council. They were divided into 2, 4 on each side.

The amount of approval and love that I was feeling from them was very overwhelming. I have came a long way, I have struggled, I have fucked up, and I have crashed and burn. But I always got back up and got better. I am at that point now. I am more full of love and confidence, and respect than I ever have been. But don’t get it twisted, this sweetheart will still fuck you up. I have a mean excretion arm. I’m still a Dark Magician. Who says a Daemonalter/Satanist,  Blood Chaos,  Necromancer can’t be bathed in pink and enjoy cartoons all day lol.

The Council gives me the most in depth working ever. After all I start with the 8 of them, and they are some heavy hitters.

I’ve become whole, I’ve been able to let my guard down and a facade that has protected me due to my own lack of confidence.  Not anymore. I have all the cconfidence right now, and I am building up more and more through my own faith in myself, my workings and my relationships. There is nothing like having a partner that supports you, grows with you, helps you, you learn from them and vice versa, and is honest with you. You can’t find that nowadays and it’s a blessing to find one that is on the same path as me. That has ideas bigger than mine. After all he created the House and every working I’m doing for these 30 days. The couple that works together, stays together lol.

My card draw for today.

I am not even going to describe it or give my interpretation.  It speaks for itself.

#domagick Day 5

Posted in Occult with tags , , , , , , , on December 5, 2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

We Are One As One. 

My chant for working with My King, BaelZeBul. The mixture of Dragons Blood and Sandalwood has just taken my over. I gave my normal blood offerings and anointed my altar as usual. 

With this working I was walking in a desert,  looking down I had on my gold and white dress from many years ago. I walk to the castle that seems to be just out the ordinary.  I open the large dark door and when I turn around the doors start to fall away like sand. I turn around round and walk up the only flight of winding stairs. I see him. On his throne. Looking at me. My King. He grands my hand and leads me to the empty thrown beside him. There is nothing but around round vast hallway in front of me now. There are doors all over the place. He said here is where I created everything in my life. From good to bad. It had brought me to where I am, and I will continue to rise. He stood up, and pulled me up with him. He twirled me around (and lately my Daemons have been ballroom dancing with me, but I’m not complaining ), and I ended up in a large room. 

It was decked out in purples and blues, all deep colors. In the middle was a very large and very black candle. It had to be 8 in wide and around 2 ft tall. The flame however was red. I sat cross legged and hovered in front of the candle as it was not touching the floor. I held out my left hand and when I looked in my right, there was this dragon lancet. The dragons tongue was a small blade with a tube attached that I saw go through the body of the dragon. So I did what I knew to do. I pressed the button under the dragons chin, the blade shot out and it stayed on my finger. The nlood flowed through the body and I moved it the the oh candle flame. Instead of popping like it always does, my blood wrapped around the hehe flame and became it. I let theohehehe button go and when I looked at my finger it was healed. 

Looking up I saw BaelZeBul. He was in all dark blue garb with a black sash arundel his waist and both forarms. His dragon staff was wrapped around his left arm. I knew what was going to happen next. I use to dread it  but now I enjoy it  he doesn’t kiss me in a runs sense we arundel familiar with, he transfers what I need into me directly. He vomits snakes, soiders, scarabs, and other death bugs and serpents directly into my mouth. I always have enhanced sight, better flow with my magic and new ideas that where there but refreshed. During that kiss, we sink into the tar, because that is what it smells like. It’s thick, black, and it burns my skin aND heals me at the same time. 

My card pulls for today where both protection cards, Go the Distance and The Fates.

For Going the Distance it’s a time to listen to my soul and let go of things that are not important.  Learn to conserve my energy and be selective about where to expend it  

The Fates is telling me certain situations are just meant to be. So if I open up and tend align myself with The Fates, I can have peace of mind of those things that I can not change and then I will have serenity.